Devastating Despair

Oh you mighty
I ask in my venture
You, who gives light and dark
Why disgusts me you and everything?

I feel this burning hate
It won´t stop, even if I wish
It wants to destroy all what I love
And even the ones which I do not know.

Life is empty
Life is so complicated
I want to die, but also I want to live
You, who have given me existence, is this what you want for me?

Why must I suffer?
I don´t understand your doing
Everything what I do wrong, heat up my fire
Also I can´t show my face, it would result in greater hate.

It´s my fault
Me and me alone
It were not the others
This cage of mine, has become to strong to break out.

Is it my everlasting fate
I have to accept, my true me
I´m a beast and I shall do what I´m suppossed to be
Or it this is just pure conceitedness, which leadme to believe this?

I do not know at all.



(c) by Christoph Langanki, Thanatos-Zero